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Hard to believe its been almost a year....

I was on facebook tonight and saw on my "about me" that said go see my blog...and I realized I hadn't looked at my blog in forever!  I thought it was interesting to see my last post about relationships.

It's been a heck of a year for me,  Bryan and I recently broke up....guess what??  I still think all men cheat!  LOL   A long distance relationship is really hard and super hard if you're not being honest with each other about everything.   Its funny because it's like I have been single the whole time but the heartache is like we were together the whole time.   I have learned a lot about loneliness and the beauty and joy of just being with myself.  It has been a very interesting and educational few years when it comes to my personal growth.

I have also taken a real journey with my health!   We believe we may have found out the culprit - vitamin/mineral deficiency in combination with a weird blood disorder.   My red blood cells are really tiny and i have less of them...this means I don't get the same level of oxygenation and both of these things can cause:

  • fatigue
  • weakness
  • abdominal swelling
  • heart palpitations
  • shortness of breath
  • pale skin
  • tummy troubles
  • nerve problems like numbness and tingling
  • vision loss
  • memory loss
  • depression
  • headaches
  • dizziness/ being lightheaded
  • brittle nails
  • irritability
  • issues losing weight
Kind of sounds like the last 20 years of my life huh?  It could also be what caused the inter-cranial hypertension - but then anything could have caused that since no one really knows HAHAH.  It is also possible that the vitamin regime could help the blood disorder by plumping up my skinny little blood cells, so that could go away/make it less of an issue.

All this to say....I am on a really exciting path again.   I am really trying to be in tune to myself and my health and my heart.   I am trying to eat well and make good choices... I am trying to move more and in fun ways.   I am trying to be open to life and whatever adventure comes along.

I have lost a dress size, several inches, and 18 pounds so far this year.  I have started online dating again (which is frightening and a little gross to be honest) and I am looking forward to my big trip this summer.  I have a permanent position finally and I am loving my job.  

Its funny how life can feel awesome and sucky at the same time :).  I am hoping to write more so look forward to some product reviews, photography and travel news!

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