Having a Rough Day - Please Pray...

One of my oldest and dearest friends was in a very very serious car accident two days ago. I found out yesterday at around 2:30 and I am being overrun by so many emotions and feelings and thoughts.

First was fear - what will happen?

Second was guilt - they had been trying to get a hold of me since earlier in the day. My phone was in my purse on silent because I was at work.

Third was fear - what will happen...

Fourth was the need to help in some way and then of course back to fear!

And this has been going on since yesterday.

She was airlifted to Vancouver so that some of the best doctors in the world could work on her! She has sensation in her legs but no movement. The body is an amazing thing and I truly belive her own body is protecting her while the surgeons stabilize her!! She spent most of yesterday in surgery and will be in the hospital for 3 or 4 weeks and then in rehab for several months.

Her husband is the strong and silent type. He does his own thing and I can respect that. I spoke with him yesterday and he didn't seen any merit in me going there. I asked him to keep me up to date but of course I am the last thing on his mind. I am hoping her sister will let me know how things are going and when I can see her.

I suppose I have done all I can do. I let the family know that I will do whatever needs to be done, I can bring them whatever they need or want. I got down on my knees and begged God to heal her. I cried.

I know it is selfish of me but I just need to touch her! I just want to hold her hand and see that she is okay. Every second that the clock ticks by feels like three hours to me!

I tried to drug myself into a good sleep, but I just woke up tossing and turning all night. I hate feeling this helpless!

So I am asking you dear reader...Please Please Please pray for me, that I can find some peace and patience. Please pray for her that she will have a miraculous healing. Please pray for her family that they will have peace and financial miracles that will help them through the next 5 hard months and possibly even longer! Pray for all the things that won't even come to my mind yet!

I just need to say this....

This week I have been confronted by many things that have made me stop and really work my tinkboxer! (thats brain for you non campers...)

I truly believe in God and his love for me....I believe that he puts people, situations, words...whatever in my line of sight as a way of speaking to me. You can call it Kismit, Fate, The Universe, Buddha, Mohammed, Ganesh, The Stars whatever you like but I call it God. I still love you even if you call it horseshit!

I wanted to share some of the things that have touched me latlely.

1. I am an avid reader of Badmommymoments.com and she has been talking about a site called Unbreakable

I have been so moved by the courage of these people to face their fears and shame and say NO...SHAME IS FOR THE ATTACKER! It reminds me of the strength of the human spirit

2. Why I hate Religion....I have long felt alone and ashamed of my disgust for organized religion which I felt was is in direct contradiction to my love of God. Its nice to know I am not alone. I truly believe that God would be so disappointed to see what his "church" has become. The wars fought in his name, the hurts perpatrated in the name of religion and his "church" spending their money on themselves instead of the community.

Didn't God say that the greatest commandment was love and that we should love our neighbor...I think he even said despite their "sin" :) Jesus would have lived on the downtown eastside....just saying!

3. I want to be an instrument of compassion, do you? This is the first time that i have heard this prayer, but it is the words of my heart!

4. One of the hardest things for me to remember is to take life one day at a time especially when things get tough.

Have I hurt your brain today?? I hope not...I just found these things so encouraging I wanted to share them in case they spoke to you too!

I just want to be the best me that I can be....so Today I am going to try that out!

Thanks,

T

So its been a week....Getting fit all over!

So as my loyal readers know (all 3 of you thanks for checking in!) Chris and I are getting fit - emotionally, financially and physically! You will have to scroll to the end if you just want to see the results in numbers!

We sat down, paid off all our credit cards and Chris cancelled one of his cards. We have enough credit between us to be able to book any minor travel but not so much we can't pay it off right away if we got in to far! We have a pre paid card as well if we need to charge something more than what would fit on each of our credit cards. That feels pretty good!

We have set out our budgets and after making some changes we are both putting away some decent savings and are on track to purchase a new to us car in May (with cash...no payments please!), to take a dream trip to europe in 2013 and to consider purchasing mid 2014!!! So as long as our plan and God's plan is still in line and our money flows stay, we are looking pretty tight financially!

This does mean we are in financial lockdown for the next year though! We made an executive decision and decided since date nights will be few and far between that we would take the bond money I had and do some upgrades to our entertainment system and to our organization in the house (the rest went to the above noted pay off)! This should make the house a more fun place to be if we are stuck there! LOL

The cleaning out of the cupboards and fridge was a huge eye opener for us! We donated a large box of food and threw out two garbage bags full of things that could not be donated! It was an expensive way to go grocery shopping let me tell you! However now our kitchen is filled with fresh, fresh frozen and healthy foods and treats!

We have taken the one step at a time approach and right now we are focusing on healthy choices and portion control. We are making more active choices and adding bits of exercise here and there when we can (mostly walking at this point). We will slowly start adding more structured work outs as we go!

One of the things we are also going to work towards is weaning out all of the processed foods...this is a hard one, especially with our busy schedules. But necessary as packaged foods have tons of sodium and thats one of the things we are trying to lower! One step at a time though and getting into the routine of making all our own meals has been fun and delicious!

We have been using quite a few of the Hungry Girl recipes and if you do not know about her I would highly recommend you check her out http://www.hungry-girl.com/


You can search for recipes, subscribe to her email list (totally worth it!), and read her blog. She is a master at making the low fat version of your favorite restaurant food and the recipes are easy to follow and modify! Many of them are single portioned which is great if your doing this on your own and have to make meals seperate from your family, are just making lunch for you or you can just quadruple the ingredients for the family! You can find tons of the recipes online and she has 4 awesome cook books out too! She includes nutritonal info and weight watchers points on each menu.

Okay...enough babbling...here are the results!

Chris - down 5 pounds and several inches all over
Tara - down 6 pounds and several inches all over

New Year....

Good Morning Internet.....

Did you party hard last night? are you still hung over, do you need me to turn down the volume?

First off, I hope that this year treats you with lots of love, joy and health!

Chris and I are starting off the new year by dumping all the crap in our house and filling it up with fresh meats, veggies, whole grains and some healthier snack options. We will start with extra walking and get the food in order. I don't think that Chris has ever tracked his food on a daily basis before so should be a fun adventure!

Once we get the food under control, then we will continue to up the workouts together!

This is the first step in our two year plan to get into the house and family market!! We are not positive the baby thing will happen but we will have fun practicing!

So I guess its time to go work on our cupboard emptying project and have a budget meeting!

talk to you soon!

TW

Merry Christmas Dear Internet!!!

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From our Family to Yours!

C and T

When it shines....its tropical??

Ever thought about this??   When things are going bad we say "when it rains....it pours"   but what do we say when things are going good?

That's my gift to you today dear internet...you're welcome!

Okay so why is it so shiny??

Its been a stellar week in the daisy field!  

Sunday -  My faithful fans (so my mom and tanya LMAO) will remember fondly my status update for sunday...."Hung out with the kids...made Christmas pictures...had Perogies for breakfast (yeah I did)...took a 3 hour nap...finished my paper....ate home made Turkey pot pie for dinner...cuddled with my husband...decorated the Christmas corner....now I am watching Dexter!! yup sounds like a great Sunday to me!!!"   I mean really, that's a good day!  Those perogies by the way were homemade by the polish lady at the deli down the street! YUMMMMY

Monday - The work day flew buy, I watched some Sons of Anarchy (season 1..kind of grusome but really good!) at my desk and then went to an amazing rehersal with Good Noise, our full band and our guest choir from Kwantlen.   We really are awesome!

Tuesday - I got up at 4:30 am, no really I did YUCK!  Andre came and picked me up and we ran down to the Westin Bayshore to sing at the annual christmas tree decorating competition.   We sang all morning for Breakfast Television on CityTV.   Then I met my husband at starbucks, we went christmas shopping (I am all done just need stocking stuffers), had grilled cheese..oh darn I keep forgetting to do my review...Went to the specialist and got the okay to go off my meds!!!   Swelling seems to have stayed down and she was pleased with the way things looked.   I have a follow up in 2 months.  Cuddled with my hubby and watched GLEE YAY!

Wednesday - I got up at 4:30 am again and Chris and I hopped in a cab to the Pan Pacific for the Christmas Wish Breakfast so I could sing again!  (here is a clip with a tiny teaser of us and shows the huge mountain of toys! http://www.globaltvbc.com/video/moving+mountains+of+toys/video.html?v=2174559315).   Then I went off to work after grabbing a yummy starbucks and reaching my first 15 star free drink YAY!   Once I got to work I found out that I got 14 out of 15 on my paper in my Language class...SUPER STAR!!!!!!!

Thursday - That brings me to today, I get to go to my mom and dads for a visit and to help them finish their taxes.   I will get fed something yummy and then I am going to borrow my moms car till Sunday.  

Friday - Concert at Christ Church....its going to rock!  I hope you got tickets because this is a packed to the rafters sold out show.

Saturday -  I intend on sleeping until forever and then I will get up study and go to my Concert at Christ Church, this one will rock too!  Also sold out.

Sunday - Have to get a good sleep, have a good breakfast and then head up to SFU for my exam.   Then I am going to drive like a mad woman to our concert at Fraserview in Richmond (starts at 3:00 pm).   You can still get tickets if you like for this one http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/206046


Hope its tropical where you are too!   Why don't you share some good news with the internet too?

seriously...its been 357 days???

Okay, thats almost a year!!!

What a freaking wierd year it has been!   so what, my new readers, you may be asking was 357 days ago?

It was the first day I noticed I had a problem with my vision and we started out on this journey with Intercranial Hypertension.    The end seems so close, I have an appointment to go see the specialist in 7 days and it should be when she takes me off the medication!   YAY....

But in the last few days I have been having more headaches (possibly due to sinus infection?), I have needed to wear my glasses WAY more, and have had 1 or 2 days with some wierd vision things.

I really, really, really don't want to be taking this medication forever!   Chris and I would really like to stay on the road to good health and start having a family in the next year, but that can't happen until all the meds are out of my system!

I am getting older, it could be because of stress, it could be I am not drinking enough water, it could be because of being sick.    Whatever it is, only the scans will tell!

Please join me in praying for good results, we really just want to get on with our lives!   

Thank you to all of you who have been praying along with me and my family for my Mom's quick recovery from Cancer!   Her second round of chemo went much more smoothly and we are praying for better and better results each and every day!

You can read about her journey here if you like....http://ljscorner-laura.blogspot.com/

TTFN!